holding her hand

Like something I've always wanted, holding her hand reminds a lot of things. I know it doesnt mean anything to her but I can't feel the typical holding hands. Well, I for one had hold so many hands esp girls. But unlike them, this one is much different. I did not ignore the fact that since I like her so much, everything she do for me is for me special. Well I try to deny any emotional attachment in every thing we do, but everytime I hold her hand, it made me wish to stay that way. I dont know.. It feels weird in the inside. It overturns my stomach. And it makes me high. I cant deny that her hand always feels different eveytime I hold it. I know it sounds kindda strange but it calms my anxieties and i feel soo much loved. LoL.. I may sound so EMO but that how it feels. That how I find her hand so compelingly strong to unearth my senses.. :)...

Learning to love in Letting go

I dont know exactly what has gone into me. I just tried to figure out how I could let go this one special person but it seems a lot of instances that draws me to her. I dont know why I just let myself fall again into the same PIT where I used to fell upon. But I guess that are one of the mysteries of love. Well, I still got this feeling for her, and this is enough to get through me. I dont know what would happen next. I know this would invite more trouble. But I guess this is for me face through. I liked her which is all that matters and I dont find the reason why I cant spent QT with her. Wish I could have that opportunity to have her :)